I've been through that dark tunnel you are in.
Jeanine and I were married 43 years. In 2018 she suddenly developed a form of dementia called Lewy Body, where the brain gradually deteriorates. For 2 years I visited her every single day in the nursing home, often bringing my guitar. Then for the last 6 months there was no admittance to the nursing home, because of the Covid, just window visits once every 2 weeks for 5 minutes. When they knew it would be just a few days they let me in with a mask, sterile gown & gloves. By then she could no longer speak, but I think she knew me. Then she was called to heaven.
For me, Jesus Christ was the light through and at the end of the tunnel.
Again Jesus spoke to them, saying, "I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will not walk in darkness, but will have the light of life." John 8:12
Jesus said (to Martha), "I am the resurrection and the life. Whoever believes in me, though he die, yet shall he live, and everyone who lives and believes in me shall never die." John 11:25
Jesus said (to Thomas), "I am the way, and the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me." John 14:6
We're musicians here, so two songs that have helped me are Praise You in the Storm and Scars in Heaven, both by Casting Crowns and on Youtube.
Admin - do you think these messages should be transferred to a new topic, such as Note from Hawk or something?